...When you're getting married in (drumroll, please) 60 days?!
Okay, well I guess I do! I haven't had any (okay, many) of the bridezilla-break-downs you hear about. More than anything, I thank God for that. He has blessed us up one side and down the other over the past few months. For example, my ring was exactly what I always dreamed of and purchased from a sweet Christian lady for 1/5th of the price it would have been in the jewelry store. Then, there's the actual place we're having the wedding: He led us to a Christian family with the most beautiful wedding venue--an old barn in the country, and, again, exactly what I wanted--who told us they wanted us to use it for FREE. They also let Tom hold a summer camp for his youth kids there a few weeks ago--a double blessing! Then, there are the vendors who have discounted their services--some up to $700. It's really been amazing to watch Him work.
When I think back over these things and how he has shown Himself faithful throughout my life, leading and guiding every step of the way, it seems nothing short of foolish to ever doubt that He will take care of me. Still, I have found that to be my number one struggle over the last months. With all of the fiancial duties that come your way when you're starting a household, it's so easy to fret. But, just because it's easy doesn't make it right. (In fact, that's often a good sign, it's not right.)
My mom and I discussed something along these lines last night that made me wonder, "How literal am I willing to take the Bible?"
Matt 6:24-34, says, "No man can serve two masters: ... Ye cannot serve God and [your self]. Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on... For after all these things do the Gentiles seek... your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things. But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."
What? So I'm not supposed to worry about my future, my savings account, my retirement portfolio? It's as easy as that, huh, God?! Boy, I have been making it so much more difficult! Of course, it's easy to say, "Okay, God, I trust you!" when there's still enough money in the bank account. But on the day when there is only pennies...well, I hope I'll remember this...
And, the Mark 12 widow woman who gave her last penny.